A lot of these women told at the end, that they would have done many things differently if they knew they were pregnant: would have eaten healthier,  wouldn’t have smoked or drank etc. Just made me think that we all should do all this stuff, without being pregnant.

Do we need to be responsible for a human life in order to take care of ourselves? That is just so wrong. I think we all should take care of ourselves first in order to be able to take care and be responsible for someone else. Too bad only a few do this.

Happy New Year to ALL!!!

“I wish you Health…
so you may enjoy each day in comfort.

I wish you the Love of friends and family…
and Peace within your heart.

I wish you the Beauty of nature…
that you may enjoy the work of God.

I wish you Wisdom to choose priorities…
for those things that really matter in life.

I wish you Generosity so you may share…
all good things that come to you.

I wish you Happiness and Joy…
and Blessings for the New Year.

I wish you the best of everything…
that you so well deserve.”

Imagine for a second that you’re carrying a backpack. I want you to pack it with all the stuff that you have in your life…you start with the little things. The shelves, the drawers, the knickknacks, then you start adding larger stuff. Clothes, tabletop appliances, lamps, your TV…the backpack should be getting pretty heavy now.

You go bigger. Your couch, your car, your home…I want you to stuff it all into that backpack.

Now I want you to fill it with people. Start with casual acquaintances, friends of friends, folks around the office…and then you move into the people you trust with your most intimate secrets. Your brothers, your sisters, your children, your parents and finally your husband, your wife, your boyfriend, your girlfriend. You get them into that backpack, feel the weight of that bag. Make no mistake, your relationships are the heaviest components in your life. All those negotiations and arguments and secrets, the compromises.

The slower we move the faster we die. Make no mistake, moving is living. Some animals were meant to carry each other to live symbiotically over a lifetime. Star crossed lovers, monogamous swans. We are not swans. We are sharks.”

and you learn that love doesn’t mean leaning and company doesn’t always mean security.

And you begin to learn that kisses aren’t contracts and presents aren’t promises,

and you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes ahead,

with the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child.

And you learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow’s ground is too uncertain for plans

and futures have a way of falling down in mid flight.

After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much,

so you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul,

instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.

And you learn that you really can endure, that you are really strong, and you really do have worth.

And you learn and you learn

with every good bye you learn.“

(Veronica A. Shoffstall)

When at the end of a day, we say “goodbye” to our colleagues, we know it is just for a day, as we are going to see them tomorrow. When we say goodbye to our parents we know that soon we are gonna talk to them on the phone. When we say goodbye to our b/gfriend, we know that it should last for a few hours, as we are going to meet soon.

But some binds are just not that strong. I am sure we all had some people in our lives we said goodbye to, but at that time we did not know for how long should that goodbye hold. If we knew, probably we would have hugged them longer, would have not been in such a hurry, probably said something else too. With these people i believe we have unfinished business. We still want to meet them for that last goodbye, to be in peace with ourselves that we knew. That we knew when we parted and said goodbye, that it was for forever.

There are people to whom i said my last goodbye. People i spent a few days/months with, but when parted, i knew that they were part of my life only for a short time, having low possibilities to see them again. But the ones to whom i did not say goodbye, and still have acted like we did, are harder to handle.

The first year was the weirdest, as that year held the biggest changes. I had to get used to the city, to handle on my own, to live without my parents being around (although we spoke every day), to meet the people i was supposed to see each day for the next 3 years. I can still remember the first snow that year, and almost everything. I guess the summer of 2006 was the last whole summer i spent at home. I sometimes miss those days: when i woke up and had nothing to do, when i slept till i was sleepy no more…

The second year caught me at another place, as i went to Germany for a semester. Here i met, again, new people, people who also had a big influence on me and my life. Here i had to start over everything, with the difference that i was in a foreign country. The second semester got me in Kolozsvar again, as i was preparing for the summer, which i spent in the U.S. That was a great summer, since then i want to live near the beach. I still want to go back, life is much more different there than in Europe.

The third year brought a change that is still in my life (my bf), and i’m grateful for that. My life changed a bit again, as i had someone i can trust, love and lean on, someone who stood by me since (which, i know, is not that easy). From the summer of 2008 i started working in the domain i learned at the uni. Again, new people, but now in a different context: team mates, work ‘friends’. That is when my trips to Vienna and Budapest started.

The fourth year was another first one, but as a master student. Again, new people, new teachers etc. I love the fall of 2008: not a grown up yet but not a fresh student neither. I will never forget the good times i had at work, the little talks, chats with colleagues, and how close we got in the meantime. We all knew what was going on with the others life, what were the problems, if anyone had a diet:) etc.

The fifth year got the biggest changes since the first one: i bought a house that became my home, changed the old workplace and finished university. That is why i get sometimes a bit melancholic. Many people entered and went through my life in those five years, but the important ones remained.

Did you ever think that a city has memories? Sometimes, when i walk in a usual place in the town, i think of the first time when i was there. What was in my mind, what was my biggest problem at that time, who i was with etc. Sitting in the same place in the park, but after five years…interesting how a few years mark your life. Could it have happened different? What if i went to another university? Or what if i went to another city? I guess we will never know the answers to these what ifs.

And now what? What will happen next? I came to study here, now that it is over, am i willing to stay? The truth is, i have no clue what will happen next, but i have faith in destiny, as so far, it got me to the right places. So, wait and see…and maybe i will have more memories with that bench in the park.

Hozzávalók: 30 dkg liszt, 30 dkg + 25 dkg cukor, 6 tojás, 3 dl jaurt, 0.5l tejszín, sütőpor, 2 kicsi zselatin és gyümölcs (banán, barack, narancs, kiwi, eper, málna s más is)

Sütünk egy vizes piskótát: elkavarjuk a 6 tojás sárgáját 30 dkg cukorral, a liszttel és a sütőporral, közben meg annyi vizet teszünk bele, hogy megfelelő masszát kapjunk. A 6 tojás fehérjét felverjük habnak, és belekavarjuk az előbb készített masszába. Vigyázni kell hogy ne törjük el a habot kavarás közben Majd betesszük sülni (kb. 160 fokra, fél órára).

Amíg sül, elkészítjük a krémet: a jaurtot összekavarjuk a 25 dkg cukorral és a zselatinnal majd odatesszük melegedni. Vigyázzunk, hogy ne forrjon, csak jó meleg legyen. Legyen előkészítve a felvágott gyümölcs, hogy amikor elég meleg lett, tudjuk belekavarni. Mikor megvan, hagyjuk hűlni. Felverjük a fél liter tejszínhabot, kicsit félreteszünk diszítésre, és a többibe belekavarjuk a gyümölcsös masszát, amikor eléggé kihűlt.

Kész a krém, a piskóta, összerakjuk tetszés szerint, és kész a finom gyümölcs torta

Kár, hogy én inkább a csokis tortát/tésztát szeretem :-s de másoknak mindig ízlik. Give it a try;)